I have friends who are police officers. One, Carl, is actually chief of police for a district in our area. I see him most Sundays, and tomorrow I plan to ask him, “Can you be arrested for that?” I love his sense of humor and he and his wife, Pam, are two of my favorite people. Though I know he will be witty, I also know he will be straight with me. Anything that pertains to the law, he’s gonna be frank with me.
Maybe I should back up though, and tell you the story? <grin>
First of all, I’m really tired. I could list you dozens of citations that link differently-abled people with fatigue and insomnia. I’m usually good about listing all those for you, but honestly there are over 26,000 articles since 2012 alone. (Yes… I counted, or rather Google scholar did!). But I digress…
When I’m tired I have a little more trouble filtering what I say. I am much more apt to just say the first thing on my mind. I’m trying to live with the “pause – respond” method (thanks for that Toby Mac post, Helen), and being mindful of not saying the first thing that comes to mind really helps. When I am tired though, I’m less likely to turn that filter on.
I have a dog in hospice care at home (sweet, retired Chloe), and I am very likely involved in way… too… much. Finishing my dissertation, teaching four classes, volunteering at a number of places; the list goes on an on. Just color me tired. This tired woman, with turned-off filter, entered Giant grocery store on Thursday. Milo-bear (my current service dog from Fidos For Freedom, Inc.) was tired as well as we had just completed a long training at the county police academy and he had a fairly long demo (that he NAILED). I only needed to get a few things, and so encouraged Milo for a last push before heading home.
When I’m tired, I wobble. <ahem> Ok. I wobble all the time. However, I wobble MORE when I am tired! I had one of the smaller carts, Milo, cane, and enough time that I did not need to rush. This didn’t seem to matter. I was a mess. I even wobbled when I moved my field of vision from one shelf to another. Being late-deafened, I do not always hear things in a big, cavernous store with lots of tile and hard surfaces. I turned suddenly, and almost plowed into a man standing there shopping with one of those hand baskets. He threw up his hands and watched me wobble, screech (just a little), and grab for everything stationary in my vicinity.
No face plant (this time). I whooshed out a breath of air, and locked eyes with him and was getting ready to say, “Wow. That was close“. He beat me to airtime, however.
“Well you are more than a little pathetic today, aren’t you?” with a grin and twinkle in his eyes.
Now… I’m late-deafened. I often mishear things. My husband could tell you a thousand stories about WHAT I THOUGHT I HEARD. He’s one of the few voices I can hear on a telephone, and has never let me live it down when he called and said, “Dinner at six?” I misheard and thought he said, “Dinner and sex?” Maybe inside I was thinking, “yes, please“, mature adult that I was said, “Excuse me…?” Yeah. That one has been hard to live down.
So this smiling man with a twinkle in his eye standing there waiting for me to respond, may NOT have said, “Well you are more than a little pathetic today, aren’t you?” I had to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Maybe he said “phonetic“. Eh, likely not since I only screeched and had not said anything.
Maybe he said “poetic”. I could dream.
Maybe he said “prophetic“. Perhaps he sensed I was getting ready to assault him.
To clarify, I said, “Ummm, pathetic?”
“Yes”, he replied, “because you….” his voice cut off because at this point? I had my cane raised.
I poked him with it. HARD. “I’M pathetic? You’re the pathetic piece of humanity standing there making snide comments about people who are a little different than you!”
He rubbed his chest where I poked him, mumbled something that I’m not EVEN gonna pretend I heard well or understood, and wandered off. I sat there hyperventilating.
Milo-bear looked up at me like, “Are we done yet?” cool as a cucumber. Me? My cucumber was fried.
As I stood there wobbling and taking deep, calming breaths, I gave myself a pep talk that the guy likely just had a poor choice of words. He seemed friendly, nice even. I’m sure he didn’t mean the way it sounded… the way I took it. I even had the grace to ask God that if He brought me face-to-face with the man later in the store, I would apologize and try to explain how his comment made me feel. Thankfully, I did NOT run into him, because… well I wasn’t really wanting to apologize.
Yes. I should have just moved on, or perhaps even “only” blasted him with my “how pathetic are YOU” rebuttal. I need to keep my cane to myself. (Can you tell I am preaching to myself?) Who knows why he chose the words he did. I make poor choices all the time.
And I do mean ALL the time.
So perhaps I need to practice the “pause method” even more:
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6 thoughts on “Can You Be Arrested for That?”
If the police wanted to go by the letter of the law, they could arrest you. Especially if the man had called and reported you. I think that’s called a simple assault.
No more assaulting people with your cane! Just use your words. They can’t arrest you for that 😉
I’m totally shocked by the things people do. As if you can say whatever you want to a disabled person with no consequences. I’ve been laughed at, called names such as “retard” and “loser” while just walking around doing my own thing. It has never gotten easier and still makes me angry. I’ve never poked someone with my cane though!
I’m pretty sure I have to keep my cane to myself. I’ve been practicing chanting to myself, “It’s an assistive device, not an extension of my fist”. At least I didn’t smack him with it like I wanted. I think he was more than aware of how I took it after my response and likely realized his poor choice of words. I like to think he looked embarrassed as he walked away. I could only hear a few words but something about being able to take a joke. You’d think I’d get use to people reacting poorly. Now I’m the one reacting poorly! Ugh! 🙂
First, I’m sorry about Chloe.
Second, you are a very busy woman. Crazy busy!
Third, Use your words. Only, your words. 🙂
Thank you! And… you are right! 🙂
Totally relate, I am late deafened, have meniere’s, peripheral artery disease, going through treatments for hepititis c and have a cochlear implant too. I’m tired, wobbly, fall at times, suffering brain fog from treatment and often bear the brunt of people pushing me, saying rude obnoxious comments , storming past me talking under breath and on and on. I try to pause before I react but sometimes the filter on responses totally goes and I react. Try not to beat myself up as it happens to us who are differently able. Some days are better than others and when I have a bad day I jst know that tomorrow might be a whole lot better so I keep on keeping on,!